9:22 pm

Nobody can go back and start a new beginning, but anyone can start today and make a new ending

I've had one of the biggest wake up calls of my life in the last month. I have realized so much about myself, and so much about the people around me. I have taken so much for granted that I am actually grateful that this horrible month, filled with horrible events actually took place. I've realized how important the people i've grown up with, and known since i was 7 years old really are to me. They have been my back bone through everything, and I have took that for granted. I am so disgusted with my actions in the last few months that I can't even blame anyone but myself. I truly realize how important some people are to me and how much I truly value them being in my life. I don't even know what made me do the things i did, and say the things I said. I think it was more of an act out of jealousy and talking down the ones closest to me seemed to give me a disgusting higher power or something. I don't ever want to make these people feel like that again, and if I ever do I really want them to tell me to just shut the fuck up ! haha I love my friends, and I love who they are and would never change them. They deserve only good things towards them.

All in all, i've learned a lot about myself, and my friends. They are the best friends I could have, and will ever have and I will cherish it forevar~

I love you guys.

4:38 pm

Lost love is still love.
It takes a different form, that's all.

You cant see their smile or bring them food
or tousle their hair or move around a dance
floor. But when those senses weaken, another
heightens. Memory. Memory becomes your partner.
You nurture it. You hold it. You dance with it.

2:42 am

I will not die an unlived life
I will not live in fear of falling
Or of catching fire
I choose to inhabit my days
To allow my living to open me
Making me less afraid
More accessible
To loosen my heart
So that it becomes a wing, a torch, a promise
I choose to risk my significance.
To live so that that which comes to me as seed
Goes to the next as blossom
And that which comes to me as blossom
Goes on as fruit.