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It makes me so sad when I see old people, I don't know what it is. If it's the fact that they have so many stories, and memories to tell, or the fact that their life that once seemed to last forever, is slowly coming to an end. When I see seniors by themselves I want to go sit with them and keep them company, my friends think I am weird for that but it's sad. Today I was waiting to pick up my mom & my prescription at Safeway and I saw like hmmm a 95 year old lady, with her daughter in her 50s I am assuming, and just the look on her daughters face and how she was reacting to everything her mom was doing was breaking my heart, as if she knew that her mom wasn't going to be around much longer. I can't even fathom how I got through that two years ago with my dad. The thought of only having one parents left now and I am only 19 terrifies me, so bad. I hope to be 60 when my mom is still living healthy and prancing around at 90 because I don't think I could go through what I went through in the last 2 years again. I would much rather leave this world before my mom did because I don't think I could be strong enough to live through it again. Anyways yes, makes me so sad and I was so touched when I saw the lady & her mom together although it did break my heart just a little! =(


On a happier note, well not so happy I guess, I had a 5 day long weekend, and of course what happens? I get the flu !! I hate being sick, the thought of having to breathe through my mouth when I am sleeping because my nose is so plugged makes me want to gag all over the place. hahah I went to the doctor today and got some antibiotics so hopefully I will be good for work on Tuesday because right now all my effort I have goes to making chicken noodle soup and peeing about 50 times a day. I hung out with Mackenzie last night, FINALLY. It's only been forever since I have seen that girl, I missed her a lot and it was really, really good to catch up with her. We had a lot to talk about and stories to share, but it was refreshing. We got some coffee, went for dinner and then watched a few chick flicks at my house, how cliche, but it was definitely what I needed while being in quarantine pretty much the previous 2 days. I finally got a chance to wash my jeep today after putting it through snow for 3 days and how muddy and dirty it was, it was disgusting honestly. Even though I know it will probably snow/rain within the next 2 days considering my luck, at least it will be a pretty little jeep for 24 hours =)

Anyways, more bio and math to come so I shall hit the road, desperate housewives in t-minus 25 minutes so I must go and prepare.



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