4:47 pm

Blink 182 was soooo good.
Oh man growing up listening to them
and actually getting the opportunity to see them live
was such an exhilarating experience.

2:48 am

why is it that the 3 guys i would actually consider dating
i can't get to theeeeeeeem

2 far
older
2 far


fml

=(

9:34 pm

9:27 pm

I love my mom, SO much. We have been through so much together and she's honestly the best person in my life. She spoils me so much and treats me so well and I take it for granted. She's honestly my best friend, and i loveeeeeeeeee it. Anyways her and I were upset and talking today about my dads life insurance. There was forms for the mortgage that he filled out and he didnt fill out one part correctly, it was in the fine print saying something along the lines of if you have heart problems or any breathing problems circle yes, and he circled no. When he passed away there was no known cause it was in his sleep, but because he had used a puffer the insurance company claimed it as 'asthma' and since he didn't check that fucking yes box the mortgage was never paid off. Which was around 400 thousand dollars. So my mom is stuck paying 1800 a month still because of that one little mistake. I just can't believe that after years and yeaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaars of my parents paying towards their life insurance, and the 35 years my dad served as a cop my mom got NOTHING after he passed away. nothing was taken care of. I know my dad would be so upset about this, whenever we talked about 'death' together he always said that he did everything he could to make sure my mom would be okay in the end. I just wish the people at the bank that helped my parents fill out this form would have paid a little mroe attention and told my dad the details of what the form was asking. I told my mom that I would really appreciate it if she would go update her life insurance claim asap, and that I would go with her. Life is too short and you never know what could happen at anytime and if my mom was to pass away all of the debt that followed after my dads death would be left to me and my brother and that's way too much for either of us to handle. I know my mom will be here for another 8000000 years but it's just being safe. I am also going to go with her so I can get a donor card and carry it with me and a DNR card in case anything happened to me. Which means that if I were to be in a coma i signed this DNR card so that they HAVE to unplug me and they can't let me live like a vegetable and that no matter what I have the rights to my body, no one has to decided anything and that will be taken off their shoulders. The donor card just states that if I was to die I would love to be cremated as opposed to being buried, so many other lives could be saved if I donated my organs.
Anyways pretty tough talk for a Tuesday night.


tmb

2:15 am

12:33 am

m.n, t.b, k.l

6:21 pm

So, this weekend Mackenzie & I hit up Edmonton finally. We were pretty stoked just to get away from Calgary for a bit especially after everything that has gone on in Mackenzies life the last month and a bit it was especially good for her to get away I think ! So we had bought LMFAO tickets and planned on going on the Friday and then the Thursday we were just going to go to a bar on whyte and then Saturday shop shop shop. A lot of bad shit went down, lack of money, felt like poop, hotel complications and so I didn't really have a whole bunch of money to spend but we still made the best of it ! Thursday was quite an adventure we got all dolled up to head down to a bar on Whyte but then we both decided we didn't feel up to going to the bar so we thought of what we could do and I suggested Capital Ex which is Edmonton's version of the stampede minus the rodeo. So we figured out which train we have to take from our hotel and where to get off and all that jazz, as we're on the train I was texting my friend from Edmonton and he told me that the Ex closes at 12 ! so we were so mad because it was already 11 by the time we got to that area. So we just hung out for a bit and then just walked around and enjoyed the fireworks. Made our way back to the hotel decided we wanted to walk around for a bit got some BP's ... a lot of BP's went back and just pigged out and watched TV. It was good & relaing just what we needed after being at eachothers throat the morning earlier. Next night was LMFAO. Then the Saturday we were leaving we went to West Ed again and just shopped for a bit, ate and decided to head back home! I also for some sick reason decided going on the rollercoaster in WEM would be a good idea, but it was not I wanted to kill myself for 8 hours afterwards hahaha.
anyways overall good weekend.
minus the shit that happened to one of my good friends and I am very upset by it that I was not there to stop it from happening. Whatever. Pay backs a bitch. I love you okay girl =)

11:30 pm

Everybody cries sometimes, and if you don't you should. Crying is a natural way of letting go of pent up emotions. It is sad fact that many children are shamed for crying. Adults who are led to believe that crying is not OK may repress their feeling of sadness. Emotions that are not allowed to release tend to leak out in other areas of their lives. The ability to express our emotions whether alone or in communication to others is necessary for a happy life.



I fucking hate you so much sometimes. Why do you say the things you say to me, and do the things you do. You make me want to fucking jump off a cliff because you piss me off so much. FUCK YOU. I love you mackenzie for sitting there with me and letting me cry my eyes out for an hour straight and you listened and didn't shun me out. i love you.

The angel lost her grace,
As mascara ran down her face.
She forgot love, remembered hate.
She no longer had her faith.

With tear stained cheeks,
Through blood shot eyes,
She saw only pain and suffer.
Love, she couldn't conquer.

As the blue sky faded to black,
Darkness filled her heart.
Her wings vanished from her back,
And her kindness fell apart.

Even with all her might,
Her dress still went black from white.
She was sent to save,
To help those who weren't brave.

But as she looked around,
At the marks she left...
Tear stained cheeks,
And blood shot eyes.

4:10 pm

There’s a new plague making its way from coast to coast. Take one step into your local incorporated coffee shop, vegan restaurant, Urban Outfitters or American Apparel store and you will be afflicted. (Or blinded by all the neon spandex and overwhelming scent of cigarettes.)

I’m talking, of course, about hipsters.

Don’t know what I’m talking about? Don’t worry’ they’ve even got a urbandictionary page page.

I don’t truly despise these people. In fact, some are my dear friends. However, the ones that aren’t my friends are becoming an issue – a taking-all-the-tables-at-my-favorite-coffee-shop issue – and here’s my top 10 reasons that they piss me off. Obviously, not all apply. And obviously there are many, many more.

1. OHMYGOD just because I don’t wear weird clothes doesn’t mean I don’t like good music, too.
Hipsters pride themselves on liking the most unique, underground indie music. And if they like something outside that realm? Well, they like it “ironically.” In fact, I’m pretty sure their entire subculture is based on irony. They automatically assume if someone is in a polo shirt that their music taste only expands as far as Dave Matthews and OAR. WRONG. Not everyone wears their music taste on their American Apparel sleeves. Get. Real. Check my last.fm; I listen to just as much Arcade Fire as you do and my mom was at Pavement concerts when you were in diapers.

2. The corporations you support are just as bad as the ones you hate.
So, you enjoy taking over Urban Outfitters? Well guess what – UO supported Proposition 8, the recently passed proposition that banned same sex marriage. Urban is owned by the most anti-gay bigot ever. Maybe you should think twice before you go heading over there for your next ironic tee and skinny jeans.

3. Life’s tough. Get a helmet.
Adorn the helmet with Bon Iver stickers. Do what you must, just stop bitching and moaning and sucking down Parliament Lights and PBR cans like it’s your job. You’ve got a trust fund, you unitard-wearing complainer.

4. Hypocritical much?
So, you spend your time hating on people for being judgmental a-holes? While you sit there and judge them based on the fact that they’re wearing mainstream clothing and maybe enjoy rap music? I don’t think that frat boy gives a crap about your life, so why do you care how he lives his?

5. Sports are not the anti-christ.
I like hockey & football. It’s fun to cheer for things (I know. Enthusiasm. Scary.) and maybe you should try watching it. Just because a lot of people love it doesn’t mean it sucks.

6. People eat animals. They taste real good.
Don’t tell me how my burger came to be. Veganism is your choice, not mine. Do I tell you how your lungs are turning black when you smoke? No. Do I not-so-politely inform you that your skinny jeans are permanently damaging your nerves? Nopers. Don’t remind me that my sandwich was once a living thing.

7. It’s okay to like things without being ironic.
I’d love to meet a hipster that can openly admit that they un-ironically enjoy Britney Spears or Fall Out Boy. Even just a couple songs. Come on! It’s catchy! I’m not judging you!

8. Starbucks is tasty. Organic coffee tastes funky.
Enough said. Maybe it’s overpriced, but oh my god, I have never had a decent frappucino at an indie coffee shop. Side note: your indie coffee shop is most likely a franchise, too!

9. PBR is gross.
Enough. Said.

10. Smile.
Sunshine, I don’t care what you’re wearing, but for the love of spandex and Ray-Bans, can you please brighten someone’s day and smile? Scowling is super unbecoming.

7:38

I lovelovelove

Big crowds enjoying big fireworks together

Fire trickles and drips across the sky, old folks huddle and cuddle and babies cry, teenagers squeeze sweaty palms and look up, up way high. Because light fills the night, kabooms bang in the air, conversation stops, jaws drop, we all crane our necks up … and stare. Yes, when those fireworks erupt, when they splash in the dark, when those bright waterfalls drip down into our park, we all ooh and ahh at them big beautiful sparks.



Waking up before your alarm clock and realizing you’ve got lots of sleep time left

Peaceful and extremely quietDark windows, dead silence, dim moonlight dancing on the walls. The night is calm and quiet and peaceful.

And then BOOM: your eyes burst open and you bust out of bed in an adrenaline-gushing, brain-rushing, heart-crushing state of emergency. Dizzy and blind, you urgently stumble over to the clock as thoughts whip through your head — am I late for work, did I miss the buzzer, do I have time for a shower?

You swipe the clock, zoom it up to your squinty eyeballs, and get a good look.

“4:56 AM,” it screams in its trademark crisp, bright-red florescent silence. “4:56 AM.”

Thump Thump, you're alrightStunned, your wobbly brain slowly pieces it together. “That is too early much than I thought,” you think. “I should back into go to bed.”

And then a slow, thin smile curls on your lips as you turn to stare at your crumpled cocoon, readying yourself to flip the pillow and dive back into Bedhead Paradise. Oh, you know that sweet cruise into dreamland will be a doozy for a few big reasons:

* Ready to rock. Hey, the bed is pre-warmed, the mattress pre-dented, and the cool side of the pillow just waiting to hug your hot, salty head. Detangle the sheets a bit and you’re good to go.
* Dare to dream. If that rocking dream you’re having is still fresh in your head, you can clench your eyes, squeeze your brain, and pop right back into it.
* Take a break. Hey, your body woke up early because it felt pretty rested, so the extra sleep is just its way of saying “Go ahead, take a long lunch.” People, this is like a snow day without the shoveling — just a big, wet puddle of free time to soak up guilt-free.

Yes, waking up before your alarm clock and realizing you’ve got lots of sleep time left is a great thing. Sure, your heart pulses and your brain convulses, but you quickly realize there’s a long time left for a lot more sleeping.

And you know what we like to call that around here.

AWESOME!

3:34 am

4:59 pm

You can see us at the front of the stage to the left of the bouncer hahaha.

So sunday night was completely random that's for sure, I met up with Mackenzie and like usual we went to Kayla's work to visit / get some coffee, we decided to wait for her to get off work! Kayla & Jack were heading to LMFAO at cowboys, and then she asked if I wanted to go and Mackenzie & I had to scramble around the city to get tickets, we finally got some at South Center, and yes pree much it. Ended up going down with Kayla & Jack and we got to Cowboys went for a smoke, Mackenzie & Me completely lost Jack & Kayla we saw them go outside but we had drinks so we couldn't go out there! So we went to the dance floor and these guys were really nice and asked if we wanted to come to the front row with them, and like... uh hell yeah so we got up there and it was about an hour til Kayla magically found us (thank God) We had to stand up at the front of the stage for a good 3 hours til LMFAO came no, but it was totally worth it, we only ended up staying for about 6 songs but we were all getting body checked and bruised up like no tomorrow. Kayla wasn't feeling to good, I don't blame her I felt like absolute shit being in the front, and she's tinier than me so she tried her best to keep her spirit up but it was no biggie, we didn't want her fainting on us! Anyways so we all left and yeah but it was an amazing show, ahhhh i touch redfoo's ass LOL. Anyways afterwards Jack dropped me and mackenzie off at my house and we met up with mervine & denis for a bit, blazed drove around had some smokes, and can't forget the part where Denis closed the window on my finger, yeah thanks fucker. Anyways it was a good night, probably won't be heading to the bar for awhile now me thinks, but it was good =) Thanks to Kaybay for inviting me =) Anyways, I think I should clean my room and just cheeeeel out i'm so exhausted and sore right now. fml.

2:57 am

Can I just say I love my best friend more than anything in the wooooooooooooorld.
I can't even begin to say how much you mean to me matchew =)

LOVE U LOVE U

2:22 am

wowowow, so much has happened in the last couple days I can't even think back to everything ! So lets start off with it finally being July! I honestly can't believe how fast that went by. Well if it's July that means July 1st which is Canada Day. It was an overall good day, hung out with Mackenzie and then visited Kayla at work yumyum, and we planned on going to the fireworks of course! So we set up for our mission to find the perfect spot that we can see the fireworks, it was ridiculously busy everywhere, but for some reason I decided to check out bridgeland and it was actually the best view we could've probably gotten! We saw the fireworks perfectly and it was fun =) Later on Mackenzie & I blaaaaaazed (of course) got some ay & dubs and watched a movie and so on. Also can't forget the beautiful face masks we did and pictures we took, not to mention the most embarrassing video of us every but will be on the internet soon for everyone to enjoy hahaha. Anyyyyyyyyyyyyways, now to the Friday (July 3rd) Kayla, Mackenzie, & I went to the Stampede parade last year so we decided it was going to be a new tradition ! So we planned to go on Friday, bleeeeeek so Mackenzie and I did not sleep at all ended up falling asleep around 3:30/4:00 am and had to wake up at 5:30 to get to the grounds in time for a good spot! We got to the parade route around 7 am, it was already paaaaaaaaaacked with a bunch of people but we found a semi-good spot where we had to sit on rocks =( All & all Mackenzie & I had a good time, we were very tired, caffeine was wearing off and we were just ready to pass out, we gave Denis a call and he agreed to pick us up (bless his soul) so we met up with him, blaaaaazed of course hung out at Jeff's house & the river and then Mackenzie & I decided that we were NOT going to fall asleep, well 30 minutes later we decided to take a nap and slept for a good 4 hours. SUCH a good nap haha, we met up again with Denis & stuff and bought some Captain Mo's, Boones, Beer, and we had a couple joints ready to be smoked. We ended up going to the river and just talking forever, telling our embarrassing stories, and drinking and of course getting hiiiiiiigh. We tried to watch the fireworks but apparently they changed the times of those mother fuckers so we missed them by a few minutes =( Anyways, later Mackenzie came over we watched Bride Wars and then gushed about our future weddings (we're lame) and then got to bed finally around 4am. Today we didn't really do anything, we were both soo exhausted from yesterday so we planned on going to a movie, it was sold out =( so we just ended up meeting Denis for a bit, and then going back to her house munching out, watched fireworks, and SNL. Pretty good weekend though, the rain is such a damper on everything it's pretty heartbreaking =(

Stoked to get out of town soon though, shopshopshop til we drop!
My friend Jason also is trying to hook me up with a job at his company
which would be absolutely amazing!