2:11 am

Family is who we look to when we need help. We expect our parents to raise us, our grandparents to love us, and our brothers and sisters to always be there for us when the chips are down. They are our blood and we depend on that connection. When a family member doesn't live up to our expectations we feel abandoned. When a parent, grandparent or older brother or sister puts their needs in front of our own, we feel abandoned and alone. In such a case, we are likely to feel sad, alone and angry.

Why do you keep doing this to me? Honestly you have no idea how hard I am trying and how hard it is right now. No one is pressuring you so why are you pressuring me. You make me feel so low about myself and hate myself. You can't even talk to me about this you just do it behind my back. Honestly am I that horrible you do & say these things. It hurts and I am honestly almost at my breaking point, and I don't know what to do.

Just stop.
Fuck.