11:38 pm

Everything will be okay in the end. If it's not okay, it's not the end.

We grow up thinking that nothing will affect us so severely that we will never forget it. But that's not true, everyday we risk tons of things and unfortunately bad stuff tends to happen to the best of us. Our whole lives our filled with risks, and some with scars to show the risks we've chosen to take.

One of my good friends has an emotional scar that she will carry with her for the rest of her life. It happens to be someone who is a true renaissance woman. No one deserves this, especially not her, and I know that kayla & myself will make sure she gets through this with no further bumps along the way. She has a very strong support system behind her and I am thankful for that.

Honestly, after this whole entire month where it feels like this last week has been jammed pack with tons that my brain feels like it's going to explode, I've learned so much. Really, never be awful to anyone, that person you were awful to may teach you the most. It's so true, the ones that are closest to me and always have been I have always seemed to rip them apart but really in the end they are who I want in my life, and they are the ones that will teach my the most. If you begin to forget about all the bad things in life, the good will eventually begin to take over.

The other night I was watching the pursuit to happiness (i love it btw) haha and the pursuit of happiness is a matter of choice...it is a positive attitude we consciously choose to express. It is not a gift that gets delivered to our doorstep each morning, nor does it come through the window. And I am certain that our circumstances are just a small part of what makes us joyful. If we wait for them to get just right, we will never find lasting joy.

The pursuit of happiness is an inward journey. Our minds are like programs, awaiting the code that will determine behaviors, like bank vaults awaiting our deposits. If we regularly deposit positive, encouraging, and uplifting thoughts, if we continue to bite our lips just before we begin to grumble and complain, if we shoot down that seemingly harmless negative thought as it germinates, we will find that there is much to rejoice about.