3:14 am

God damn I miss you so much.
R.I.P daddy, 2 years later and it still hasn't gotten any easier.
I wish I could see you for even 60 seconds, just to sum up how
much you've impacted my life and how much i love you.

my poem:

Daddy so many memories of you come to mind
whenever I or someone else speaks your name.
It seems that now without you in my life,
things have never been the same.

What happened to those comforting and relaxing days,
when I was just a child.
How I missed school and spent the days with you
is just an example that now seems so mild.

I miss you being our families back bone
when all of our lives were consumed in you
you made sure we knew you loved us,
through your smile, your words, and your heart too.

I remember all those times,
when I would look up to you.
No matter what happened in my life, ups & downs,
you could turn my grey skies blue.

Just like every other family we've had those silly arguements,
the anger in those fights never lasted very long.
You were our rock and our protector,
and because we had ties that binded us that were too strong.

We've had many get togethers with family and friends,
Through the feast and famine, laughter, and tears.
The memories that built day to day,
our love had continued to grow throughout the years.

Some days I imagine hearing your voice,
so I turn to see your face.
Yet, while I begin to turn
your image and sounds begin to erase.

Daddy, who will I turn to for the answers
when life confuses me and I can't make sense of it.
I wish you could be there to hold me close,
when the pieces just don't fit.

Oh, Daddy if I could turn back the time to that horrid day
and just for one more time hear your voice.
I would tell you that out of all the daddys in the world,
you'd still be my one and only choice.

Daddy please know that I still love you,
you are my friend, my strength, and my pride.
After years pass and you will still be gone,
I know that you are still at my side.

Still it is hard to know that you're gone and not coming back,
I hate the thought of our family and you apart.
There are days where its hard and some where it's easy,
but mostly because we know you hold our hearts.

Today, Jesus as you are listening
in your heaven graciously above.
Will you go find my father up there,
and send him all of our love.