1:04 am

I was all ready to go to bed but I can't sleep. I keep thinking about how it seems like everyone is passing away. It's always the good people too, the ones who don't deserve to leave this world, the ones who brighten up a room the second they walk into it. It scares me, so badly thinking that everyday we live could possibly be our last, and alsdkjalksdjas.


My heart goes out to Cody, and his family and other friends. I saw you literally 3 weeks ago, so full of life and having fun. One of the best hockey players that have came out of the city of Calgary, such a future ahead of you. Absolutely breaks my heart. May you rest in peace Cody Bobenic. 01/09/10

6:32 pm

So, it's been about a month now since I even posted anything. It's a new year, fresh start. I am so excited to see where this year takes me. I want to live this year with no regrets, stop holding myself back in reaching my full potential. I have so many things I want to accomplish this year, so much to see, so much to do. Last year went by ridiculously fast, so much changed. This year I lose my teen status, I am growing up, and I need to show it. I need to get a better job first of all, a steady full time job. None of this retail bullshit. I need to finish my school, which is probably the most important thing right now, I didn't do as good last semester as I had hoped because it wasn't my main priority, friends and working surpassed it, and I fucked up. I am praying that I will just pass these classes because if I have to redo them I will be so disappointed in myself. Right now I just feel like something is missing, I don't know what it is, or what I can do to fix it. I just feel SO unsatisfied, like something is out there for me but I am so stuck where I am that I can't reach it, and I don't like this feeling.

Anyways, new year has already been pretty decent, couple things coming up these two months I am SO stoked about. Steve aoki (L) (L) (L) in Feb, Mexico AND my birthday in March.

Anyways, since it's a new year lets recap through a few pictures (L)

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January

February

March - birthday!

April, 420

May, kaskade

June

July - blink182

August

September - mstrkrft / aoki

October

November - Macks birthday

December - NYE

4:00 pm

wowowowow, december already time has flown by!

can't write much, about to leave I will have a good entry in after kayla & sabbys birthday which is in a week! jesus.

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